Between Needs and Desires


               In an economic subject that is taught in the first grade of junior high, “Keinginan” means something that people want to have it, but if people don’t have it any, it won’t be destroying people’s life –sesuatu yang diinginkan manusia, tetapi apabila manusia tidak memilikinya tidak akan mengganggu kelangsungan hidup manusia tersebut-. Yes, keinginan can be called as wish, hope, or desire.
                Different with “Keinginan”, “Kebutuhan” can be meant as something that people have to have it, if they don’t have it any it may cause a disaster for them or their life. We don’t need to make ‘needs’ and ‘desires’ same. It is still different with its meaning and its purpose. Yes, it’s kind of Hyper-Reason -lebay-. Sometimes people make ‘needs’ as reasons to have something that actually doesn’t make their life worse. But sometimes people thing that they don’t really need it even they don’t want to have it, but they must have it or do it, caused it’s needed.
                In several times, as a human, I wanted something that I thought it’s needed for me, and I really wanted to have it. But I could not make it by myself. I needed my parents or some people around me to help me making it real. I made it as my wish, my hope, and my dream. But they looked my opinion just something that I just could hope, wish, and dream. They didn’t thing that actually I needed it and it’s needed for me. If I dare to explain them about my wish smoothly and say it in good sentence carefully, all what I got is nothing. Sometimes they perceived all what I want with jokes that are not funny. Yea, I know, it’s better to answer with jokes than giving me false promises. I hope it wouldn’t make any disaster to my life.
                That’s true to say that the thing I needed was expensive. Nah, because of that I told them and have a purpose to purchase it to me, as my needs :p *as honesty* But I knew, no one that is perfect. Look our brothers that don’t have any house. In fact it’s one of the needs that people must have. They just have sleep in the corner of the road, under the highway, or gone from a place to another where they feel comfortable. House is a kind of need and desire for them. Most people in this world have it already, wherever they live with their relation in this house, at least they have a place to stay. If people thing that house is needed for the have-nots, it should’ve been given to them. But people’ s thoughts are different. We should know it’s needed or just a desirability. That’s all.

Hypersensitivity of Me

          As student, it's okay for me to give more attention to what I reach. I know, I have to study hard, give a special concern to my school and all those assignments. It's all I do to give a success for me, people around the world, and my parents especially. But there is something that I have to give more attention to. It's about success and failure. That's the point that till now I haven't studied about it. Poor !!
          An experience I remember about. One day I was facing mid-test. At that day I was studying bout a subject, then the marks of accountancy came. I failed to do most of the problems of accountancy subject, that finally my mark was bad. You know what I did then? CRYING! *what a spoiled boy, huh?*
          The other example of me taken from what I got yesterday. I completely exciting receiving a report from LIA, my English Course. The report was written about the resume of my achievements in last three months. When I opened it, what a surprise!! what a new point of achievement I had!! Welcome to High Intermediate-4 :) but the marks of HI-3 was worse than HI-2 and HI-1. I was sad, and asked to myself, "How could I reach the marks like that?" What an ungrateful boy I was.
          From the two experience I told, I just understand that I'm very hypersensitive about marks, either achievements. I mentally bad. I'm not ready for a success. Yes, it's kind of a new important thing I got from some experience. To be graduated from a success, people have to be ready facing failure and success. Have good achievements, be grateful, but not too much. Have failure, be more patient and work harder. That's the point! Success :)